Baby growing and new jobs...

While I know everyone mainly cares about the status of the sprog in my belleh, I am going to talk about my new job first! HA! I had mentioned in my last post about applying for the position of CPS investigator...well guess what!! I GOT IT! I am very excited as this will give us an opportunity to save up for the baby and move into a house with insulation! I will begin orientation for the state on Feb. 1 and my 12 week training course begins on Feb 22. The only sucky thing is that training is in Houston, but thankfully north Houston. I am finally getting to use that fancy degree I worked my bum off for!

Now on to more important things: the sprog. My first doctor's appointment went well. It was more of an initial consultation including blood work and going over paperwork. I really like the nursing staff!! I have two more appointments this week: one with the Dr. on Wed and the ultrasound on Friday. These exams will entail the fun stuff like pelvic exams and medical history. Friday will be exciting because we should be able to find out the sex of the baby...which brings me to my next topic:

Gender...
I keep getting asked what gender I prefer. I would be a liar if I said I had no preference. I think that deep down most women want a girl mainly because we are girls and we kinda understand the mechanics and the ins and outs of girlhood. That being said, I am hoping for a little girl.

I have also been asked if I will be disappointed if the baby is not a girl...and to that I respond: HELL NO! We are so blessed to be having this child. I just want a healthy, happy baby that will occasionally drive me nuts and that we'll love more than anything in this world. Me and Shawn do have a bet going though..his side is more boy dominated and mine is more girl dominated...and yes there are twins on both sides, but we don't talk about that!

As for names...We have chosen them...if you love them, Great! If not, well...as nicely as I can say it, get over it because this is our child and not yours. You may ask why I am a bit bitchy on this...simply because, as my friend Andrea put it, it's not your choice. I appreciate the concern and when you have a child you may name it whatever floats your boat, but these are the names we like and since we'll be the one's screaming it, crying it and saying it with love and adoration...we win!

Girl: Anna Li-The meaning behind this is two fold. My mom's middle name was Ann. She passed away in 1998 and I wanted to honor her memory by naming my daughter after her. Her first name was Edith and while I love the name, I wouldn't do that to my kid. Li has a special meaning for me and Shawn..'nuff said.

Boy: James Alexander-James is my father's middle name and a name that me and Shawn both love. We mutually chose Alexander.

It is finally starting to hit me that I am going to be someones mother...and that scares the living shit out of me. I know I am having the normal fears: what if I screw them up, what if I can't take care of them, OMB this is forever...etc.. I know that I will be a good mother and Shawn is going to be the best Papa in the whole world. I try to calm my fears by reminding myself that already this child has so much love and support between family members and friends. I also know that this is perfectly normal and I am just experiencing what everyone else who has gone through this did. My parents did screw up too bad and neither will we!

That is all for now...